2011

ok, so I have come to realize that life is what you make it. Although that is really cliche and boring and completely unoriginal. it is true.& most do not realize it until they have hit ground bottom and have to figure out where the fuck to go from there. I pride myself on my optimistic views on life, which, in retrospect, can be pretty jaded. Not everything is what it should be or what it appears. The human mind holds onto memories in times of complete loss whether that loss is internal or external. The mind does that in order to provide a quiet, subconcious reminder of more blissful periods of life. But many times, people can just be griots, a people where memories are just stored. I do not want to live on memories. It is like running on limited fuel, shits gonna run out eventually. I want explore the world and progressively experience what life has to offer in order to some day contribute to life and give others something to look forward to. I have come to realize that dumb things like premature relationships or lustful moments of greed are insignificant. Life is so much more. If an animal in the wild on NatGeo lives a peaceful, eventful life on the golden plains of Africa knowing that at any moment a predator can rip them from all that they have ever known and still run around with no fear, then so can I. I fear no predator & I will fully enjoy the my sun filled days on those golden plains.

Two Sided

So im sitting in a park with my best friend lunchbox looking at these group of guys wrestling on the grass. those kids were content with just playing with each other, no toys needed. basic. simple. Simplicity and two sided reflectons are just good for the soul. sometimes its good to step back and just chill out. experiences mold who we are, good or bad, they just do. but people seem to find it easier to focus on the negative experiences and often harbor resentment towards anything associated with those experiences. its important appreciate the good and the bad. Nothing stays bad forever and these experiences are tools that can be used to push you to where you want to be. dont forget where you come from because youll forget a peice of who you are and that void wont be filled as time goes on. dont stress every detail and try to fight change. change is necessary. imagine where we'd be without evolution? we wouldnt be at all. you live life once. all the time that you waste cursing and dreading the negatives is time you could have spent rolling down hills on summer nights. appreciate all that is around you and i promise that will be the most humbling experience. its good for your sanity guy.

Death in a bottle

why are hangovers so deadly? & it alll begins....you head to a party and people funnel liquor down your throat. you start to feel invincible. like youre on some pink cloud floating on a cloudy night on a warm summer night type shit then....boom! reality has knocked you offf that dumbass cloud because you find yourself spinning in a room, blurred faces like some carnival with scary clowns that are trying to kill you and eat your heart. shit. you get home and try to lay down..whooopssssssie. thats when its all over...............the vomit just pours out of your mouth, spraying like a sprinkler guy. you throw up enough that you finally sleep. but its prob the best seep that youve had in years and the you stand up and see the same carnival clowns..smh

Lies.

The world is legit built on lies. Some lies are smaller than others and other lies can shatter someones world, but everyone lies. People try to please others and make em feel comfortable and they use lies to adjust that comfort levels. Some people are declared liars while others are sneakier and harder to catch. I have lied. and I have realized that lying temporarily relieves my problems. I have lied to my mom and friends and family and teachers and even my dog. I lie because sometimes I can't handle a situation. I lie to justify my actions. I lie to avoid hurting people and at the end of it all , all of those dumbass lies have hurt me the most. I want to climb a building at sunset and stand on top of the roof and yell the truth. I want to yell to my mom the truth about where I have been late at night and what I was up to. I wanna scream the truth about my missing homework to my teachers and I want to scream the truth about how I really see myself to the world and then I want to sip wine and smoke a blunt and be content with the truth that I have found in myself and watch the sun set on my confessions.

Dear Joshua Bennett

I had the honor of seeing Joshua Bennett perform live in November. I sat in that audience, in that cold ass dark room and when he spoke, flushes of gold light and warmth radiated throughout the room and our my minds became interwined with his words of pure sincerity and passion. I sat there as he spit this poem about love. the last lines going like, "Dear unattainable love, if you ever find yourself at a bus stop in brooklyn with a lead havy heart and a craving for wings, write me a love poem on a kite made from paperclips and old cross word puzzles wait for an evening when that sunset is so brazen tha you could fry an egg on it and let it fly adressed to the boy with earthquaked legs signed sincerely the best co-pilot this side of the atmosphere". how could he say those words and not mean it? How could he come up with an image of pure beauuty and fantasy and link it to what love is like for him? If love is sincere and pure and if its anything like Josh depicts it to be, I wouldn't be scared to fall again.

Dont nobody wanna liberate the weight of the pain.

This week has been a week of realization, sad,hard,cold realizations. Life throws us in situations where we may feel as if the negativeness willl never end. But, when you are put into a situation where the truth does not exisist and fake smiles cloud your judgement, its important to remember that nothing bad lasts forever. There has to be some greater power that's at work. Relationships change. Thats the truth. Relationships end. Shit happens. But as a human being, holding hate and resentment in your heart will end up being the same shit that breaks you down. You have control of your life and you are destined for greatness. You are meant to shine and as much as life and people try to scrape and dent you,, at the end of the day you will be shining. Beauty and success and drive and dedication and compassion comes from within. It's not sold in stores. It can't be imitated or duplicated. The cheap imitations will never be better than the original. Yeah, Friends turn into strangers, family members dont call as often,, and lovers become faint memories but all of those situations are learning experiences. He didn't leave you, she didn't lie to you, and forced you to not continue a relationship with you. Relationships end when there's nothing left to learn. Take what you learn, and move yo ass.

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